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Saturday, January 8, 2011

God's test to try me...

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If I have a plan, and the more that it's serious, the more God give me unexpected situations.

Here are some tests I had encountered in life that made me grow. And some decisions just made my life suck!  But any decisions I make, it is my decision that would lead to another decision that I should make in the near future.

To accept the summer job that may lead to part-time job as a Chinese typist in a cemetery.

This is indeed a wow from my Chinese computer teacher.  I was at my 3rd year high school then.  I type Chinese characters really fast during those times.  To accept or not, I weigh in all the pros and cons.

I didn't accept the offer.  I think it would be a good job, and the offer is not that bad.  The only problem is, only I and another guy would be in the office up to about 6:00 pm.  And I can't imagine myself walking from the office to the cemetery gate after office hours.  The office is located in the very inside of the cemetery.

I really like the job.  It would be the first job I have if only I had accepted it.  I got my parent's approval to decide if I like to accept the job.  So I was like... I would accept it... No, I'm afraid of ghost!


Leave the job that I would be regularized, on the programming language that I aim to give my resume a good status to international and high-paying software company.

I am the type of programmer who aims the best for myself.  I want to be considered as one of the best programmers in a company.  I hope I had achieved that in some companies I had worked in.  I also aim to get trust and respect from the clients of the company.  My gender is a little issue, although it shouldn't be.  Most companies I'm in had this "He's better than her."  But at the end, I had proved that I am better than the guys =)

At that time, my boyfriend (now my husband) and I was planning to get marry.  I need to arrange so many things (I won't explain them the detail here anymore).  I know and I feel that I would be regularized.  But before the HR would approach me, I told my supervisor and the HR that I don't want to turn them down that's why I won't stay with them.  Staying with them, I would have lots of absences which is not a good sign to become a good employee.  And the job requires my full time to create applications with tight deadlines, and test other software.


To accept a job that is almost equal to my first job.

I hate them for giving me such an experience that I would never forget, an experience that every good programmer doesn't deserve!  I like to have a job.  And they need someone to start their company.  I agreed.  After a year, I got an increase.  We had talked about what I can do in the company.  But later on, I got some restrictions.  I'm just a hard-headed employee to them.  They need a programmer who is willing to work in their company.  I need a job that would let me have late and absences.  It should be a win-win situation.  But I guess I am a martyr to accept job interview offers from other better companies.

I accepted the job offer.  But after more than 4 or 5 years, I resigned.  I think I would have a depression.  Now, they have a programmer, or programmers.  I think I won't enjoy the perks and salary level that their programmers have.  I am a female.  And I might be taken for granted, that I won't resign, that I would have a hard time looking for a job because of my motherhood.  Although they might say that it's no true that they had taken me for granted, that's what I actually felt.  And I hate it when they make me a fool in front of their clients.

Okay, I would like to thank them too for some good reasons.


To marry or not...

I was asking myself, "Is this the guy that I would marry?"  I asked myself a lot more questions 3 months before the wedding date.  I like to say no.  I like to run!  But I was thinking of my parents.  I don't want to give them more troubles.  And I love him anyway, even if we're quarreling a lot.

I said "I do."


Job interview offers from big companies.

I really don't want to go back to work.  There would be pros and cons.  Should I accept job interview offers?  I had gone to one.  It is really a good company.  I'm not sure if working in there would make me a better programmer/system analyst.  But for sure, the starting salary is good.

I got another job interview to attend.  And maybe some more in the near future.  I am not actively looking for a job.  I want to get a job but I am waiting for companies to call  =)

A friend told me.  I can go back to work and try if that kind of lifestyle can fit with my motherhood life.  If it doesn't, then I am free to resign.  I would want to thank him for that advise.  My mother also feel at ease after hearing that advise I told her.  My mother now encourage me to attend job interviews if offers come.


God is testing me on what I would do in my life, what decisions would I make, and how I would like to mold my future and my family's future.  It would be a step-by-step for me.  I hope to attain an 80,000 Pesos per month salary someday, like other 4 years programmers out there.  I got 10 years of experience.  But I hadn't worked in a big prestigious international company.

I hope when I go back to work, everything would be fine.  I worry about Ivan.  I really hope everything would be fine...
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