The Job Offer or The Online Shop
I resigned on my last job because of some work-related reason. Although some can't accept that it's work-related reason, it really is!!! It should not be a work-related reason until I woke-up from being a martyr.
Now, there are still job offers but most are job interview requests. I know that going back to work as a programmer would surpass my monthly net earnings on my online shop. But being a programmer would require me to give up my being full-time motherhood.
When I accept job offers, it would be just like before when I climb up the industry ladder. It would be work work work... work until achieve the best salary I can get. Greedy??? It is how I really work. I work to get money and to be successful, to sustain the wants and needs for myself (and now for my family).
Last night, I got a phone interview from a known company. I did apply from them before. I was asking my husband what to do. I was asking not for a permission, but for an advise. I got nothing. He told me that whatever would make me happy. Whatever I want to do.
I was still thinking of the money I would get from being a programmer. I was asking myself, why had I been to dumb to not accept good offers before. I had been too good to two of the companies I worked in. The two companies are the first company and then the last company I worked as a programmer.
Some people would say that I can't leave the last company because I have a baby to take care of. True! But it's the second reason. Believe it or not, my first reason is because I can't leave them. And I don't want to leave them! I am so dumb, really dumb that I can't believe how dumb I am!!! I am still asking myself why the hell I didn't accept the job offer in New York!!! The company, a very known IT company, is in need of a group the knows a certain programming language. And when I say yes to them, I would automatically be sent to New York!!! I say no because of my love to the company I work in. Dumb... really dumb.
But just this morning, I took Ivan out to cut his hair. We rode a tricycle to the parlor. I was feeling so happy. It was like a snap that I realized, when I accept job interviews and job offers, I won't be able to take Ivan to cut his hair. I won't be able to take care of my own child. I won't be able to teach him all the things I want him to learn.
So my choice is my online shop.
There are many mothers who chooses to go to work. It's either they go to work and leave their baby to yaya/mother-in-law/mother/maid, or they take care of their own baby. They don't want to take care of their own baby because they won't be able to go out and meet-up with friends.
I want to go to work. I want to go out and meet-up with friends. I miss the life I have with I was single. But nothing beats seeing my baby everyday, taking care of him, giving him a bath, taking him out for a hair cut just the two of us.
Now, there are still job offers but most are job interview requests. I know that going back to work as a programmer would surpass my monthly net earnings on my online shop. But being a programmer would require me to give up my being full-time motherhood.
When I accept job offers, it would be just like before when I climb up the industry ladder. It would be work work work... work until achieve the best salary I can get. Greedy??? It is how I really work. I work to get money and to be successful, to sustain the wants and needs for myself (and now for my family).
Last night, I got a phone interview from a known company. I did apply from them before. I was asking my husband what to do. I was asking not for a permission, but for an advise. I got nothing. He told me that whatever would make me happy. Whatever I want to do.
I was still thinking of the money I would get from being a programmer. I was asking myself, why had I been to dumb to not accept good offers before. I had been too good to two of the companies I worked in. The two companies are the first company and then the last company I worked as a programmer.
Some people would say that I can't leave the last company because I have a baby to take care of. True! But it's the second reason. Believe it or not, my first reason is because I can't leave them. And I don't want to leave them! I am so dumb, really dumb that I can't believe how dumb I am!!! I am still asking myself why the hell I didn't accept the job offer in New York!!! The company, a very known IT company, is in need of a group the knows a certain programming language. And when I say yes to them, I would automatically be sent to New York!!! I say no because of my love to the company I work in. Dumb... really dumb.
But just this morning, I took Ivan out to cut his hair. We rode a tricycle to the parlor. I was feeling so happy. It was like a snap that I realized, when I accept job interviews and job offers, I won't be able to take Ivan to cut his hair. I won't be able to take care of my own child. I won't be able to teach him all the things I want him to learn.
So my choice is my online shop.
There are many mothers who chooses to go to work. It's either they go to work and leave their baby to yaya/mother-in-law/mother/maid, or they take care of their own baby. They don't want to take care of their own baby because they won't be able to go out and meet-up with friends.
I want to go to work. I want to go out and meet-up with friends. I miss the life I have with I was single. But nothing beats seeing my baby everyday, taking care of him, giving him a bath, taking him out for a hair cut just the two of us.
2 reactions for this post.:
that's the best decision of giving more quantity time for your baby, just keep it up and never give up ;)
thanks :)
by the way, who are you?
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