Lonely...

I'm so lonely.  I wonder why some people around does care, help and cheer other people so much, while they just ignore me.  I hate it when my husband help other people even if it won't benefit us.  He'll pay a visit everyday to that friend from China, would help him find a good business partner, and he won't get anything.  He also needs to pay for the gas!  They would lunch and dine out everyday.  While I, his wife, is asking for just a sit down with him and our son at the nearest Starbucks, and is ignored!  Just once I tell him.  But he's so busy with his friends.  Just imagine... on bed... when he calls me, I'm game.  But when I need him on bed, he ignores me.  Hmmmmp!

I sometimes thought and question myself (like right now), why the h3ll did I marry a guy like him?  He's a very responsible son, a good father, a cool friend, a nice and dependable relative.  I think he forgot the word "wife".  Confrontations?  According to him, we are "one".  I'm not "the others" to him.  He said, why would he be too eager to do things to me if we're "one".  He can't ignore his friends because they're "important friends". And compare to me, he can't open up to his friends like "Sorry but I'm busy."  He give that excuse only if no one would be able to take care of our baby.

Money... maybe money can help me.  Money can help me loosen me up buy be able to sneak out and buy the things I want.  I would have money soon.

Lonely...